Yes, it's been quite some time since I've been on here. And if memory serves me correctly, the majority of my last posts were just lyrics to songs that I enjoyed at the moment. A serious entry (at least public one) has not been posted for as long as I can remember.
Well, here I am now, staring at the bright screen with some work open and xanga on the bottom. My phone on my desk, right now my only connection with her. The tool that I've been using to transmit my feelings to her. Feelings of loneliness and of heartache. The tool that I've been punching at, nonstop, for the past three days pouring my feelings of sadness, anger, loneliness, sorrow, and regret.
So what happened? Why am I the way I am. What could have possibly caused all of this?
It's a long story, one in which I don't think I should be sharing with everyone here. But to make a long story short, I met the one. But she had promises she made, promises she just couldn't break. She has friends, friends she doesn't want to leave. She has things she still want to do... things that don't include me.
So that brings us to where I am now. Sitting on the sidelines, my heart breaking every time she gets to experience something without me. Making memories... without me. It's almost as if I don't exist. Out of sight, out of mind.
All I get are the leftovers to Thanksgiving dinner. Delicious, no doubt... but still leftovers...
You were working as a waitress in a cocktail bar When I met you I picked you out, I shook you up, and turned you around Turned you into someone new Now five years later on youve got the world at your feet Success has been so easy for you But dont forget its me who put you where you are now And I can put you back down too
Dont, dont you want me? You know I cant believe it when I hear that you wont see me Dont, dont you want me? You know I dont believe you when you say that you dont need me Its much too late to find You think youve changed your mind Youd better change it back or we will both be sorry
Dont you want me baby? dont you want me - oh Dont you want me baby? dont you want me - oh
I was working as a waitress in a cocktail bar That much is true But even then I knew Id find a much better place Either with or without you The five years we have had have been such good times I still love you But now I think its time I lived my life on my own I guess its just what I must do
Dont you want me baby? dont you want me - oh Dont you want me baby? dont you want me - oh
Dont you want me baby? dont you want me - oh Dont you want me baby? dont you want me - oh
Dont you want me baby? dont you want me - oh Dont you want me baby? dont you want me - oh
Dont you want me baby? dont you want me - oh Dont you want me baby? dont you want me - oh
Dont you want me baby? dont you want me - oh Dont you want me baby? dont you want me - oh
I can't believe it's over I watched the whole thing fall And I never saw the writing that was on the wall If I'd only knew The days were slipping past That the good things never last That you were crying
Summer turned to winter And the snow it turned to rain And the rain turned into tears upon your face I hardly recognized the girl you are today And god I hope it's not too late It's not too late 'Cause you are not alone I'm always there with you And we'll get lost together Till the light comes pouring through 'Cause when you feel like you're done And the darkness has won Babe, you're not lost When your worlds crashing down And you can't bear the thought I said, babe, you're not lost
Life can show no mercy It can tear your soul apart It can make you feel like you've gone crazy But you're not Things have seem to changed There's one thing that's still the same In my heart you have remained And we can fly fly fly away
'Cause you are not alone And I am there with you And we'll get lost together Till the light comes pouring through 'Cause when you feel like you're done And the darkness has won Babe, you're not lost When the worlds crashing down And you can not bear the cross I said, baby, you're not lost I said, baby, you're not lost I said, baby, you're not lost I said, baby, you're not lost
Maybe it's intuition but some things you just don't question Like in your eyes, I see my future in an instant And there it goes, I think I found my best friend I know that it might sound more than a little crazy but I believe...
I knew I loved you before I met you I think I dreamed you into life I knew I loved you before I met you I have been waiting all my life
There's just no rhyme or reason Only the sense of completion And in your eyes, I see the missing pieces I'm searching for I think I've found my way home I know that it might sound more than a little crazy but I believe...
I knew I loved you before I met you I think I dreamed you into life I knew I loved you before I met you I have been waiting all my life
A thousand angels dance around you I am complete now that I've found you
I knew I loved you before I met you I think I dreamed you into life I knew I loved you before I met you I have been waiting all my life
I knew I loved you before I met you I think I dreamed you into life I knew I loved you before I met you I have been waiting all my life
